Tag: bpd

clitcheese:

the DSM 5 is a bitch. if another human being said i was making “frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment“ then i get to deck them right then, you can’t just say that to another person but apparently it can get away with it because it’s a “diagnostic manual”, more like too scared to fight me 1v1

i wrote this to be funny but now i’m seriously questioning putting my whole condensed personality up online as a text post for people to see like this feels, way too intimate. date me for at least 6 months before bringing up this text post in conversation please & thank you

the DSM 5 is a bitch. if another human being said i was making “frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment“ then i get to deck them right then, you can’t just say that to another person but apparently it can get away with it because it’s a “diagnostic manual”, more like too scared to fight me 1v1

fangirlinginleatherboots:

“but this didnt used to trigger you” or even “this didnt used to trigger me why am i upset about it now, i must be faking” 

  • memory shifts. you build barriers to protect yourself and depending on the frequency of your exposure to something, those barriers can break down or change
  • understanding something better can make it feel worse sometimes. look, when you were younger you probably couldnt understand that something was hurting you. now that you know it was bad??? yeah its gonna trigger you worse than it used to because you KNOW now.
  • recovering from some things can unlock deeper struggles. so you dealt with the issues that were on the surface? well your brain is going to let you access the next level of problems that need to be dealt with now.
  • life has different phases that expose you to different triggers. stuff that triggers a teen with school responsibilities is going to be different than the stuff that triggers a new parent with a new baby or an adult with a social job or a blogger with constant exposure to daily news.
  • triggers can be shaped by the trauma of people you know. you can gain new triggers from knowing something related to that happened to someone you care about. once you know how awful a thing can be, even if it wasnt awful for you personally, you can still be sensitive to it.

and most importantly

  • YOU DONT NEED A REASON FOR SOMETHING TO BE A TRIGGER. yes, there IS a reason, but it’s not your responsibility to immediately understand why your brain does what it does. forcing yourself to analyze too soon is skipping the stage where you learn to cope with it first. learn to cope, then analyze. knowing why is difficult if you cant handle the emotions that come with knowing
  • UNDERSTANDING COMES WITH TIME AND INTROSPECTION. you should not force yourself to explain your triggers, especially without the guidance of a therapist or trusted, stable confidant.

Me: I’m excellent at reading people
My therapist: you assume that ANYTHING is a sign people hate you
Me:… like I said, excellent at reading people!
My therapist, realising this is going to take ten more sessions: *internal screaming*

Because i havent seen many posts for it

aspec-for-awesome:

Shout out to aspecs with personality disorders!

To aspecs with borderline personality disorder

To aspecs with narcissistic personality disorder

To aspecs with schizoid personality disorder

To aspecs with antisocal personality disorder

To aspecs with histrionic personality disorder

To aspecs with avoidant personality disorder

To aspecs with any other unmentioned personality disorder

You are all amazing and strong and im very proud of you!

clitcheese:

clitcheese:

i thought it was disassociation bc ur brain didn’t want to be associated with things but it’s not its just Dissociation and im now realising that brains processing information isn’t at all associating w anything

brain:

the outside world:

brain: i have Nothing to do with Her

the outside world: here are some people you could try having a regular conversation with

brain: blocced & reportéd