Tag: don’t

likewise, i can eat without assistance. but that’s not the problem, bc i can’t make food for myself. to live independently, i’d have to order takeaway every single day. and i can’t afford that. and if i have to try to make food, it will use more energy than i ever have in a day, and i’ll get exhausted, or injure myself, and fucking starving won’t help me make food. but the form doesn’t worry about where im meant to get food from, just if i need assistance eating. where do u think the food is meant to come from, paperwork people

i don’t know what i’m meant to say on this disability form like, i don’t technically need assistance in doing most things. like, if i’m too weak to go outside one day, i just can’t go outside. if im in a wheelchair or using my walking stick, it’s equally as exhausting and bad for my health to try go outside. there just isn’t an assistive device that can help with literally always being too weak and tired to do anything or look after myself, so there’s no answer i can tick on the page that just says Nothing Helps, so technically i’m not in need of assistance, and so technically i can’t be that sick

i have a drs appointment with a specialist who’s been amazingly unhelpful before and refused to write me an actual diagnosis bc i could use it to get on disability pension which could ‘discourage me from getting better’, and now i get to rely on this guy to do that again and to support me moving out and into supported accommodation, and i know from past experience that if this goes badly again im probs going to feel suicidal for the next few weeks, so, fingers crossed im not sick and suicidal forever

kinda wish i could actually fuck up all my friendships with my actions, shit i can apologise for, instead of this whole thing where it’s literally just my personality. did i do something wrong? no never it’s just me as a being. i really want to hear that i did something wrong next time someone gives up on me just to break the pattern because fuck this just isn’t a fucking coincidence anymore

found out the ndis has a little sign up form where you give them your details and they’ll contact you and there was a required form that’s like ‘what are you trying to contact us for?’ and i cried trying to figure out what i need to ask for

death of an autistic child , child abuse probably, im on mobile pretend there’s a readmore here

an 11 y/o autistic kid escaped from a “care” facility and got hit by a train and it’s all over the news and i read the comments and some of them are straight up victim blaming the kid for escaping, and those people are fighting w people whose stance is that there should have been more guards, more people on shift, basically a more dehumanising situation overall. only 2 or 3 people i saw said the fucking obvious like, It’s Not A Fucking Prison. children don’t feel the need to escape if they’re not being abused, if they’re fucking safe.

but also like, i don’t know anything about this kids disability or development or anything and i can’t be authoritative on whether or not they could understood rail crossings and rail safety. but kids don’t want to die. they don’t come up with that idea on their own. it’s also… questionable that a kid could independantly figure out how to escape a facility run by adults, and just happened, to die because they couldn’t piece together that incoming trains are deadly. like, disability is complicated and i fully get that some things can seem simple but be difficult to grasp and others seem difficult and just make more sense to some people. but also I don’t think i can trust mainstream reporting to piece together something that makes ableism Look Bad