Tag: mine

the house with annabel crabb only came out last year and it’s already a time capsule. turnbull is the pm with a majority government. julie bishop is foreign minister. nick xenophon is important. it’s pre-section 44.

i got on antidepressants meant to also help w anxiety and, they’re working pretty good, yes “I should have done this a decade ago the first time i got hit with teenager depression”, I know. i’ve been dizzy all the time though, which should go away soon

i keep thinking why am i so triggered by eugenics and then i remember i’m disabled and autistic, this shit has been triggering me for as long as i’ve formed memories, trans and disabled deaths are two of the three triggers i’ve put in my bio so everyone knows I’m Not Quite A Fan. so, what’s my problem. why do i hear this shit and instinctively think, like ‘oh this is Someone Else’s Problem, not mine, so why am i shaking’

likewise, i can eat without assistance. but that’s not the problem, bc i can’t make food for myself. to live independently, i’d have to order takeaway every single day. and i can’t afford that. and if i have to try to make food, it will use more energy than i ever have in a day, and i’ll get exhausted, or injure myself, and fucking starving won’t help me make food. but the form doesn’t worry about where im meant to get food from, just if i need assistance eating. where do u think the food is meant to come from, paperwork people

i don’t know what i’m meant to say on this disability form like, i don’t technically need assistance in doing most things. like, if i’m too weak to go outside one day, i just can’t go outside. if im in a wheelchair or using my walking stick, it’s equally as exhausting and bad for my health to try go outside. there just isn’t an assistive device that can help with literally always being too weak and tired to do anything or look after myself, so there’s no answer i can tick on the page that just says Nothing Helps, so technically i’m not in need of assistance, and so technically i can’t be that sick