Tag: mine

i have a drs appointment with a specialist who’s been amazingly unhelpful before and refused to write me an actual diagnosis bc i could use it to get on disability pension which could ‘discourage me from getting better’, and now i get to rely on this guy to do that again and to support me moving out and into supported accommodation, and i know from past experience that if this goes badly again im probs going to feel suicidal for the next few weeks, so, fingers crossed im not sick and suicidal forever

kinda wish i could actually fuck up all my friendships with my actions, shit i can apologise for, instead of this whole thing where it’s literally just my personality. did i do something wrong? no never it’s just me as a being. i really want to hear that i did something wrong next time someone gives up on me just to break the pattern because fuck this just isn’t a fucking coincidence anymore

found out the ndis has a little sign up form where you give them your details and they’ll contact you and there was a required form that’s like ‘what are you trying to contact us for?’ and i cried trying to figure out what i need to ask for