hey i don’t talk about being chronically ill on this blog much anymore and. i’m not going to start lmao this is the part of my life that i’m the absolute fucking furthest from accepting. self love is fucking miles away. i struggle to talk to other disabled people about this a lot and a lot of it is that i have no way to reconcile things like the social model of disability and other positivity stuff with the fact that my body and mind are both fucking prisons

my disability is on my dating profiles and i keep getting absolutely gorgeous queer disabled people messaging me and being sweet but they say shit like, “hey we should get together and talk about being sick sometime!” and i want to say Thanks! You’re gorgeous and wonderful but i’d rather be shot in the tits than talk about this with another human being! but thanks!