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fangirlinginleatherboots:

“but this didnt used to trigger you” or even “this didnt used to trigger me why am i upset about it now, i must be faking” 

  • memory shifts. you build barriers to protect yourself and depending on the frequency of your exposure to something, those barriers can break down or change
  • understanding something better can make it feel worse sometimes. look, when you were younger you probably couldnt understand that something was hurting you. now that you know it was bad??? yeah its gonna trigger you worse than it used to because you KNOW now.
  • recovering from some things can unlock deeper struggles. so you dealt with the issues that were on the surface? well your brain is going to let you access the next level of problems that need to be dealt with now.
  • life has different phases that expose you to different triggers. stuff that triggers a teen with school responsibilities is going to be different than the stuff that triggers a new parent with a new baby or an adult with a social job or a blogger with constant exposure to daily news.
  • triggers can be shaped by the trauma of people you know. you can gain new triggers from knowing something related to that happened to someone you care about. once you know how awful a thing can be, even if it wasnt awful for you personally, you can still be sensitive to it.

and most importantly

  • YOU DONT NEED A REASON FOR SOMETHING TO BE A TRIGGER. yes, there IS a reason, but it’s not your responsibility to immediately understand why your brain does what it does. forcing yourself to analyze too soon is skipping the stage where you learn to cope with it first. learn to cope, then analyze. knowing why is difficult if you cant handle the emotions that come with knowing
  • UNDERSTANDING COMES WITH TIME AND INTROSPECTION. you should not force yourself to explain your triggers, especially without the guidance of a therapist or trusted, stable confidant.

thatjayjustice:

I have never been more tempted to reply in a Doctor Seuss style verse.
A Kind, Well-Meaning Able Bodied Person™️, when told that the terrible weather was not helping my #disability & chronic pain, asked if staying indoors would help. Yes, I was inside when she said this.
*clears throat*

My chronic pain is always there
On the ground, in the air
I’ll be in pain everywhere
Because I have a disability
Chronic pain is part of me
Yes it’s worse when there is rain
In or out, I will be in pain
There is no relief, you see
It is a permanent disability

I know you ask because you care
Your friend is ill & life’s not fair
Every time you ask ‘how are you’
There is no change, there’s nothing new
It’s okay, you’re being nice
But this is NOT a time to give advice
With some things, there is no cure
Sometimes in life, we must endure

Don’t tell me to go inside
I live in pain, I ALWAYS hide
But hiding won’t make me feel better
So I’m writing you this silly letter
Yes I feel worse when there is rain
In or out, I’ll be in pain
I’ll still go out, do things, be free
Ableism limits me more than my disability
<fin>

chronicallyinvisible:

able-bodied people don’t seem to realise the nuances of disability, they look at it as such a black and white issue when it’s really not. like, i don’t need a wheelchair in the sense that i can’t physically use my legs and i don’t need a walking stick in the sense that i would fall over without one. but i do need a wheelchair in the sense that it could make the difference between my being bed-bound for a day and being bed-bound for a week and i do need a walking stick in the sense that using one today might enable me to do more tomorrow. disability and chronic illness aren’t black and white; using things out of necessity can mean a lot of different things for a lot of different people.

toadstoolfuel:

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clitcheese:

are there adhd episodes. is that a thing

things aggravate adhd symptoms, so if ur going through a period of depression, stress, etc., ur adhd may feel much more acute

i have more info but my phone is being mean but basically yes u can

okay i don’t know much about what ur specifically experiencing right now but here’s some potential things that can make ur symptoms worse:

  • fatigue: most people w adhd have sleep cycle disorders so this is a pretty obvious one, but still. increased fatigue means normal reasons for bad focus, irritability, slow processing, etc., in addition to our Special ADHD Reasons :))
  • stress: basically same as above. now you get fun extra reasons to be distracted, fidgety, etc.!!
  • depressive cycles**: some people don’t notice their adhd worsening during a depressive cycle, because they’re not as active and driven as other times. BUT adhd symptoms are worse during down swings. research indicates adhd is largely an issue w dopamine release. basically: dopamine isn’t released properly on completion of tasks, meaning our brains receive no reward for completing things, meaning it doesn’t train itself to complete things optimally. that’s ultra simplified and there’s other issues but in essence depression + adhd is mixing two (2!!) different dopamine related disorders and throwing in other stuff (fatigue, stress, u know) that aggravates ur adhd even more
  • stimulant dose: if ur on adhd meds, or self medicate with caffeine/other stimulants and u stopped/lowered ur dose, ur symptoms will worsen as ur body detoxes. similarly if ur regularly taking too many stimulants (most common reason for this is mixing caffeine with meds), specific symptoms will worsen. typically u’ll feel super agitated and either get really hyperfocused or really hyperactive 
  • new responsibilities: my personal biggest reason for noticing my adhd more acutely is ~~~~new responsibilities~~~~. specifically new stuff that is extra hard cause of my adhd. examples: new job where attention to detail and time management are important, new classes with long lecture times, socializing with people who get annoyed by adhd symptoms, etc. this makes me super notice everything i do and get extra frustrated with myself for not *perfectly* managing myself

** this is probably similar for cycles/episodes of other disorders (bipolar, schizophrenia, etc) but i only have depression and adhd, so i don’t know

tldr; no, u don’t experience adhd episodes in the same way that u experience episodes of other mental disorders, but yes it can feel pmuch exactly like ur having an adhd episode depending on what’s going on in ur life

there’s lots of good scientific articles out there about research into how adhd works and what seems to make it easier to manage. plus, my personal favorite resource addforums (http://www.addforums.com/forums/index.php). u could look around for similar experiences there

anyway that was probs way more info than u wanted but i hope it helps a bit!!!

this was really helpful thank u!