what she says: i’m fine
what she means: in Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan, spock performs a mindmeld with dr. mccoy, depositing his katra, or soul, into the latter’s mind. the katra transfers at the moment of the mind-meld rather than at the point of the original holder’s death. spock gives mccoy his katra before he enters the radiation chamber. when kirk arrives to the scene, spock asks him ‘ship… out of danger?’ to which kirk assures him that all are safe. then spock tells him ‘i have been and always shall be your friend’ and dies. in Star Trek III: The Search for Spock, once spock’s katra is reintegrated with his body, he approaches kirk and asks him ‘ship… out of danger?’ again, clearly not remembering any of the events after he placed his katra in mccoy’s mind. however, soon after, he tells kirk ‘i have been and ever shall be your friend,’ a clear echo of his previous ‘i have been and always shall be your friend,’ which he should not be able to remember. there is no in-universe explanation for this, UNLESS kirk was thinking of spock’s death and how he said ‘i have been and always shall be your friend’ and those thoughts transferred through a vulcan marital bond to spock’s mind, in which case spock’s vocalisation of those thoughts, which was said in a questioning manner, could have been a test to see if their marriage bond were still in place.

lieutenant-sapphic:

victorian-sexstache:

lieutenant-sapphic:

johns-posh-boy:

I HAVE NEVER HEARD SUCH ROMANTIC DIALOGUE IN ANY BOOK, MOVIE, OR TV SHOW AS I HAVE IN “SEARCH FOR SPOCK”

-“the noblest part of myself”

-“some of our dearest blood”

-“We were separated…he couldn’t touch me.”

-“eternal soul…as if it were my very own”

-“the cost would have been my soul”

god and have you heard the SOUNDTRACK

Oh please explain the soundtrack, I would pay you if I could 😍

ALRIGHT HERE WE GO. THIS IS GONNA BE LONG.

in Wrath of Khan, there is a one-minute track called “Spock” that plays when kirk comes into spock’s meditation zone, around where the line “i have been and always shall be yours” is said. That melody is spock’s melody; it essentially follows him throughout the movie and it plays when he dies.

In Search for Spock, as kirk goes on Sadness Walks™ around the enterprise, saying he’s left the noblest part of himself down there on that newborn planet, spock’s melody plays – spock is haunting him, even in the soundtrack. spock’s melody also plays in spock’s cabin.

When sarek mindmelds with kirk, spock’s melody is very very strong, showing how present spock is in kirk’s thoughts. The melody is more present in kirk’s mind than it was in spock’s cabin (or any other place) aboard the enterprise.

What’s interesting is that musical tracks between lovers often are heavy on the strings (violins in particular). The music that plays between kirk and spock when they are reunited on Vulcan uses strings and a Vulcan horn. The spock melody comes back just as spock comes back (that’s the bit on the Vulcan horn) and the backing note is violin.

This is all well and good, but NONE OF THESE LITTLE FACTS ARE MY FAVORITE BIT. (okay, maybe the part about the spock melody being in kirk’s thoughts make me a little emo. but anyway.)

What i want to talk about next is a bit subtle and required some digging; it’s about the ten-minute jazz piece that plays in the bar scene early in the movie. it lacks lyrics and may not seem significant, but when you look at the lyrics to the songs it is composed of (”That Old Black Magic” “Tangerine,” and “I Remember You”), they foreshadow the events of the movie. Let’s look at “I Remember You” first:

“I remember you; you’re the one who said you love me true”
and
“When my life is through and the angels ask me to recall the thrill of them all, I shall tell them I remember you.”

The song is about remembering a loved one; that is – surprise – the entire end scene of the movie. Spock remembers, saying “Jim… your name is Jim,” and “I have been and ever shall be your friend.” (which incidentally reminds me of an old Indian wedding vow which includes the lines “we may ever live as friends.” But that’s beside the point… or is it?)

“Tangerine” is a pretty standard bar love song. So is “That Old Black Magic,” but there is a couplet in there that really jumped out at me.

“You are the lover that I’ve waited for, the mate that fate had me created for.” 

And that’s pretty damn perfect for their relationship, isn’t it?

If you want to know what James Horner (the composer for both Wrath of Khan and Search For Spock) has to say about all this:

“What was most important to me as a storyteller was the relationship between Captain Kirk and Mr. Spock. (…) I set up this relationship, this bond between these two characters and that was the key to Star Trek II. (…) What has to be brought to the surface more in the storytelling is the deep affection that occurs between these two characters, Spock and Kirk, and that’s really what I focussed on. It ended up fortuitously working to set it up that way because it cemented something that wasn’t in the first movie; it cemented something on a big scale that wasn’t in the television series. It was always implied. I tried to nail it in the movie (…) It was all about that relationship.” (x)

So, you know. Make of all that what you will, but it all seems damn romantic to me.