You turn on the radio one morning to find another one of those Rap songs where every 4th word is a swear. Naturally the Radio bleeps it out, but you realize that it sounds familiar. You realize that the rappers are speaking in Morse code.
Your eyes widen as you swerve over onto the shoulder of the expressway, nearly hitting a Jeep Cherokee in the process. It didn’t matter to you. Frantically searching the glove compartment, the backseat, and your purse, you finally find a small notepad and a pen with a low ink cartridge. You listen closely to the radio, and begin to scribble down as much as you can. You realize it was merely a pattern.
— -. . / – .– — / – .– — / ..-. .. ..-. – -.–
Unfortunately for you, you aren’t very well versed in translating Morse code, merely recognizing it. You reach into your purse to grab your phone, but after a moment of searching, you realize you had left it at home before you left for work. “God damnit,” you mutter. You’re more than halfway to your office, and you’re already running late due to the fact that that you decided to follow some whim and jot down some cryptic message from a provocative rapper. Concluding that it would probably be best for you to mosey to work, you pull back onto the expressway and try to make it to work on time.
Upon arriving at work, you ask any coworker in sight if they know Morse code. Nobody seems to, and some don’t even know what Morse code is. You slump your shoulders in disappointment and head over to your desk, when suddenly, the quiet, mouse-like secretary clears her throat and says, “Excuse me, I know Morse code!”
You turn around with the same wide eyes as before. “You do!?” you ask vigorous excitement, which seems to startle the young woman.
“Yes,” she says, “when I was younger, I planned on joining the navy, so I taught it to myself.” You feel a bit sorry for her, that she wound up as a mere secretary instead of a naval officer, but that feeling of pity didn’t stop you from being grateful for the lucky coincidence of her knowing Morse code. You show her the pattern.
— -. . / – .– — / – .– — / ..-. .. ..-. – -.–
“That’s all there is?” she asks, furrowing her brow.
“Yeah,” you shrugged, “it just kept repeating that over and over again. What does it say?”
“One, two, two, fifty.”
Your heart sinks a little. “What is that? What does that mean, is it like a phone number or house address or something?”
The secretary shrugs. “I’m really sorry, I don’t know. It’s too short to be a phone number, but beyond deciphering it, I’m afraid I can’t help you.”
You nod slowly, and though you understand, you are still not at all satisfied. You go to sit at your desk. 1 2 2 50. The sequence plays over and over in your head all day, and needless to say, your curiosity an wonderment got the best of you. It was not a very productive work day.
You head home, and the same damned song plays on the radio. You shake your head as if that would make the song stop, then decide to plug 12250 into your GPS to see if there are any autofill results. None. You become increasingly frustrated.
When you get home, your daughter is sitting at the kitchen table, working on homework. She runs up to you and gives you a big hug, and asks about your day at work. You put on a fake smile and sigh. “Interesting,” you say— no doubt sugarcoating the intense excitement, disappointment, and confusion.
“Will you help me with my homework? I have to memorize something for my history class tomorrow.”
“Of course, doll! What are you memorizing?”
She hands you a laminated sheet of paper. “Roman numerals!”
You glance over the page, your eyes quickly darting from one, to two, to fifty.
It dawns on you. You’d recognize this pattern anywhere.
I II II L
Oh fuck
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“How does one hate a country, or love one? Tibe talks about it; I lack the trick of it. I know people, I know towns, farms, hills and rivers and rocks. I know how the sun at sunset in autumn falls on the side of a certain plowland in the hills; but what is the sense of giving a boundary to all of that, of giving it a name and ceasing to love where the name ceases to apply? What is love of one’s country; is it hate of one’s uncountry? Then it’s not a good thing. Is it simply self-love? That’s a good thing, but one mustn’t make a virtue of it, or a profession. … Insofar as I love life, I love the hills of the Domain of Estre, but that sort of love does not have a boundary-line of hate. And beyond that, I am ignorant, I hope.”
— Therem Harth rem ir Estraven, The Left Hand of Darkness, Ursula K. Le Guin (via mortharris)
Being chronically ill is like being a phone that can’t charge past, like, 30%. You can do a good chunk of stuff when at 30%, but not as much as you’d like to before it has the go on the charger. You know when you’re charging your phone but you need to do something really quick but the charger cord won’t reach so you just take it off for a second, but it’s only at 10% so it’s constantly giving you the notification to put it back on the charger? That’s what it’s like to get up to do anything be it get a drink, go pee, check on sleeping family, whatever, at night. You are constantly being reminded by your body you need to get back to sleep and soon, but you know that you can do this small task at 10%, because you’ve done it at 3% before when you were absolutely desperate, but it doesn’t make it any less nerve-wracking because if your phone’s over heating or you left the brightness all the way up, or you misread the percentage, that 10% can go right to a power down before you get it back on the charger. People understand “I don’t wanna leave the house yet, my phone’s only at 27%” but don’t quite get “I can’t leave the house yet, my body is only at 10%, if I left now I wouldn’t make it back home safe”
this is a fabulous analogy, and I may borrow it for my chronic pain issues if op doesn’t mind because damn, it’s accurate
My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. It will keep my loved ones safe. No fear, no hurt and no worries. I may come from a broken and twisted place but I will build something whole and safe. I’ll sing in the shower again, cook with a smile and dance in all the rooms. I will heal.
To my fellow autistic working class people:
You have such great inner strength. I know most days it feels almost impossible to keep going after working shifts anywhere from 4 to 16 hours long full of social pitfalls, sensory issues, meltdowns, and ignorant coworkers just to live paycheck to paycheck; but some how you find the strength to keep going and I am so very proud of you. We work everything from dirty jobs with uncomfortable and unbearable physical sensations to punishing customer service jobs where we are constantly played against our strengths and expected to act as neurotypical as possible. I want you to know there is no shame in needing special accommodation, no shame in doing your work the way you feel comfortable doing it, and no shame in not being able to work jobs or perform tasks that neurotypical people don’t struggle with. There is nothing wrong with you, and you deserve far better than you get.
“dragonborn” literally can’t be what they call themselves, because they hatch. they’d be dragonhatched. this is mammal propaganda
hey terfs
as a trans guy Born as A Female Wombyn Natural Born Walking Vagina Uwu id like to go on record to say that the people who advocate for the use of “people with vaginas” over “female” or “women”
are
people like me
not trans women
it’s me and other non-women with Natural Wombyn Vaginas who have vaginas and aren’t women
it’s us
we’re the ones who don’t want to be called women when discussing the genitals we have
me! and people like me!
you can stop scapegoating trans women about this now you complete damn buffoons now stop being disgusting
female alien: my husband that i loved very much just died 😦
riker: this is so sad computer play careless whisper
simba: i ran away from home
timon: that’s so sad pumbaa play hakuna matata
sevenofninetertiaryadjunctofunim:
janeway: i have helped seven of nine discover her individuality
borg collective: you fucked up a perfectly good drone is what you did. look at it. it’s got anxiety.
